I'd eventually leave the place, sad but not completely down. I did have a long road ahead of me, and I had to start somewhere. Thus, after a few days of thinking over what had happened, and realizing the situations I'd have to be in, I decided to begin refining my body and mind.
I, even as inexperienced as I was, knew what was in my future, what I was being prepared for regardless of my wants. 'It' had sent me to hell for a reason, to kill it, but, there was still time before that conflict, and per its words 'everything you do out there will be in preparation for our next and last meeting'.