I look behind me, and see a sphere with rune engravings on it with a glowing, celestial aesthetic.
The rune looks like a cross, but geometrically more complex. I can't begin to understand what the symbol represents or what function it could serve, but something about it on its own has the power to draw me in despite my sightless gaze.
"Adam.", from it a voice speaks to me.
"Who, who are you? Are you the orb or are you speaking through the orb?"
"You ask the wrong questions, but the correct answer to that question is that I Am Who I Am."
"God?"
"That is the not the name I said, though that is a suitable title. Another suitable title to have you understand what you lack understanding in, is that I am Consciousnessitself."
"Hmmm… What do I do?"
"Wrong question once again, Adam. You are only capable of responding with these meaningless statements due to your lack of spirit. If you wish to have the wisdom to ask either a different question or the same question in an honest way, the first thing you should do is allow yourself to fear me."
"Fear you? But I thought that the most common phrase that has been emphasised was to 'not be afraid'?"
"That is only a message to the honest man. You are not, you cannot be afraid, so there is no reason for me to tell you such a thing, but instead of that problem being there, you still have another problem that takes its place.
You must save yourself to perceive My presence."
"But, I'm hearing you and seeing a part of you right now."
"I am only an orb in your eyes, Adam, that could mean anything. You do not see my face so you cannot trust that I am who I say I am. For your own benefit, which you are aware it is needed, faith is the way to being able to see anything, faith is the light that illuminates everything that isn't just 'you'. There has to be a sense of alienation, separateness from you and the rest of reality. The ultimate form of self control is submission, submit yourself to the present moment, and have grace guide you through the uniqueness of that moment in isolation, no more comparing and self defence needed for the sake of having a substitution of being protected."
"Is your voice and Word also limited to my ability to hear, like how your image is nothing more than an orb in my limited sight?"
"The Word is an autonomous consciousness as well, with a will of Its own, it is Me but yet it is only a part of Me.
The truest true Me is The Origin that which sense of self can be possible in the context of consciousness, but The Word however, just like you, is the very fact itself of giving will and strength to fulfill the Potential of this sense of self.
This Potential that can be fulfilled through anything, just like this orb, or a burning bush, or even in human flesh no matter the role It chooses to play.
I chose to create life out of the desire to have more than one being exist with its own distinct sense of self that follows the same rules as if I were to limit/submit Myself to the present moment, that is why I have made Humans in My image.
However, your life is a blasphemy, you walk without any regard for your own self and disgrace the very essence of will.
I am aware of your struggles and I can only be fair, but that only means that both are true, it is true that you are lost due to not knowing better, but it is also true that your lostness can also be called dishonour to Grace which is bad.
With my own will as The Word, as Grace in both a literal sense and as the authority of its personification, I have judged you to be fallen from Grace, it is both by natural consequence and within the context of moral judgement that you are to suffer this punishment, but this punishment is with consideration of your own Potential and potential salvation, not strictly the personal relationships I already have. I have yet to acknowledge you for you have yet to acknowledge Me, if you want to become The Chosen One, to become my adopted child, you too must first choose Me as as your Chooser."
"Can The Word take the form of a god instead of just something lesser in the hiaraechy even though It is separate from You as The Origin, since it is You?"
"A god is a Potential that can be fulfilled, and I am aware that that means that a human can also reach that highest Ideal. That is what Christ is as the role I chose when I came in the flesh as my Son over 2000 years ago, that is why Yeshua is Jesus, god, and Origin/God.
I speak to you now as a different role through the same essence of The Word, but if you wish to speak with Jesus, you will first have to have faith, so that this orb can take the shape of His face."
My heart suddenly raced, I had never thought of this before.
"I do not know what I would want to see, my Lord, but I promise you, that I will not stop until I am able to say that you are my Lord as an honest man next time we speak."
"Next time? Why is it you expect for our conversation to end here?"
"Oh, it's not?"
"No. And I have a mission for you to do after I give you permission to touch this orb through its materialisation."
"What is the mission?"
"You are to explore this new world, and take on the role of messiah for yourself."
"What?!"
"You cannot be saved and protected, but you will give this salvation to others.
Personify Grace through the lens of The Holy Spirit, and you will learn what you must along the way to overcome the abyss and the void, and find yourself on the other side of the opened gates of paradise."
"…"
"Now you are afraid, but you are afraid of yourself. You fear that instead of a lens of holiness or light, you will be guided by an unholiness or darkness instead.
To be fruitful, and yet origin of sin came from a forbidden fruit.
The reason why these two things are visibly indistinguishable is because both holiness and unholiness are only possible through Grace.
They are categories of lenses, not necessarily one being good or evil, but actions that come from these two different energies on their own can be objectively judged morally as either good or evil.
For example, violence is evil on its own, but fighting to protect a loved one against another being who is violent, is fair and righteous.
All is not fair in love and war, however, actions do have consequences.
…
The personification of My anti, Satan, he too has been crafted with the same spirit of will and even Grace, just as the rest of my creation along with the humans, but he has disgusted and dishonoured Grace itself by intentionally going against the very same morality which he himself is subservient to.
In his lens, he judges everything unfairly as an act of vengeance, defiance, and will not be convinced otherwise that he believes that his unfair judgement is fair within the context of his diagnosis of the reality.
He has misdiagnosed the situation intentionally as well, only so that way he could indulge in the thrill of the sadistic dark energy that motivates his role.
He remains true to himself, but his self disregards all other selves. That is why he is the enemy.
On top of that, he even wishes to replace The Origin of Me, capital-G God and Grace, with only the single role of the personification darkness as authority to unfairly judge and will over all of reality and consciousness.
You yourself unknowingly have have been disGraceful, but he does so knowingly.
You are at a crossroads where your role can be motivated by light and/or darkness, and even if you by the context of your yet to be crafted and identified with backstory have both catagories of Grace be fair when I judge you, such as your potential for violence possibly being used righteously and you only do good despite what rageful passion could motivate you to do so, you know full well that every step of the way, you have the choice to do a wrong doing.
I told you your mission is to take on the role of messiah, but you will learn along that journey just as my Son did - for all "true Christians", which is the title my children, that is to say you humans, have given to those who follow the path of humbly following in Christ's footsteps as the highest ideal (or as you personally have given it the name "The Ideal" before you learned anything about Christianity - that those who are guided by Grace can personify it through not just the essence that allows of Christ, but also the essence that allows for the role of Antichrist.
Yeshua was given the name Jesus due to his unwavering devotion through the essence of the Holy Spirit motivating him, as his personal relationship with all humans was built off of love, however, he was capable of hate and even did hate the wrong doers, to the point that his fair judgement sensibly acknowledged moments that required a turning of the other cheek when others are violent onto him when need be, but also for him and his deciples to carry swords for the need to have self defences when travelling and not just intentionally being ignorant to the consequences of their lack of actions with the potential of evil doers lurking.
In the end, if you are by the end of this journey to be motivated by both essences of holy and unholy spirits, love and hate, but over all remain fair in your judgement as you are devoted to both the protection of your loved ones and decimation of your enemies which isn't entirely out of the question, then I will judge you to be good despite you being a Combi-Christ.
Just remember, do not let the darkness consume you to the point that your actions will both have unwanted consequences from a strategic perspective, as well as from a moral consideration standpoint with acknowledgment of those who are contextually innocent that have the right to be cared for in a different and good way by you too.
All is not fair in love and war."