"You know, I would have rather you said 'no', than just... say nothing..." Azier blurted out with humor as he tried to mask his pain.
Seriously - the first women he'd ever truly fallen in love with, and they didn't love him in return? The fuck was this cruel fate? Surly one of them did... right? Now we wanted to know, but he also didn't want to at the same time.
'Don't ask questions you don't really want the answers to, Azier.' He reminded himself sullenly and quietly.
What a hit to the ego - no, the spirit as a whole. It hurt really badly and he wished it didn't. A few weeks ago he didn't care about them - and now he literally sank a ship out of his love for them, and this is the news that was given to him?
This... sucked... but he wanted to play it off like it was no big deal. After all, who wanted to be the one stuck in the mud in this situation? Not him, that was for certain. If he played it cool, maybe the actual sting of rejection would go away.
