I sat in my room looking at the ceiling wondering how I was going to handle the complications. Minji was a person who I just hung around to forget the pain of my heartbreak. I never really intended to develop feelings for Minji,and to be honest
I don't view being in a relationship with him. But I have this sense of comfort when I'm around him and I never want to leave it; but, TaeHyun was the one I truly loved.
He was my first in everything, he was also my first heartbreak. The day we had to end things between us because of his family moving to Thailand. It wasn't a forever goodbye because we would always go to visit but, it didn't feel the same. Hooking up with an old lover and then pretending nothing happened, not to mention at the time he had already found another boyfriend. I think that was the thing that led me to randomly hook up with people I didn't know, but when I found Minji he was the first and only source that could take away the pain I was feeling inside.
Now I'm stuck between two people.
Later that evening there was a sudden commotion downstairs, and BaekHyeon came knocking at my door. "There's someone here for you!" He rejoiced opening my door, "Who?" I asked, "Come see for yourself." He said shutting the door. I sighed dropping my phone on my bed and headed downstairs.
As I was walking down the stairs I saw a very familiar figure standing in the living room. Once I got down the stairs there I saw Taehyun standing there with BaekHyeon by his side. He smiled at me and waved, "Taehyun?" I said walking closer to them, "Did you miss me?" He asked, opening his arms. As soon as I realized I carried him into a hug and held onto him very tightly.
I wrapped my arms around Taehyun, feeling a rush of emotions flood over me. "I can't believe you're here," I whispered, my voice choked with emotion. Taehyun hugged me back, his presence a reassuring comfort.
BaekHyeon clapped his hands in excitement, "Surprise!" he exclaimed. "I couldn't keep this a secret any longer. Taehyun wanted to visit and I thought it'd be great to give you a surprise."
Taehyun pulled back slightly, his warm smile lighting up the room. "I've missed you so much," he said, looking directly into my eyes. "I had to come and see you, even if it's just for a little while."
I placed him back down and dragged him back to my room. "Please don't make any noise!" BaekHyeon exclaimed.
"Is this why you called me yesterday?" I asked as I closed the door behind me, "kind of." He replied, I hugged him from behind and smiled. "How long are you staying?" I asked, "Two weeks." He said. He turned around and looked at me smiling, "I can't believe it's been years since I saw you face to face" he wrapped his arms around my head. My heart skipped a beat but just looking at the smile he was wearing. "I miss us Jihoon," he said, "I've tried to move on but nothing seems to work, all I can think of is you." He stated some I felt guilty by hearing those words.
Even if I also did try to move on I slowly started losing feelings for him every minute I held Minji in my arms. I never thought of him when I was with Minji, even when I was not around Minji the only thing I could think of was Minji. At that point, I started to lose feelings for the guy who was standing right in front of me.
"What about you, did you also think about me?" He asked, I sighed and decided to tell him the truth. "I'm not going to say I don't think of you but…" There was a small pause in my voice hesitant to speak out. "I met this guy a few years ago, and I've been around him every now and then. At first, he was just a person I wanted to hook up with but I slowly started finding myself going back to him day by day." I confessed, "Also when you called me yesterday I was with him, but I sent him home when we ended our call." I told him.
Taehyun sighed as he slowly backed away from me. "Are you guys serious or is it just a hookup thing?" He asked, "It's just a hookup thing and nothing more," I replied, "Do you like him?" "At first I never tended to feel this way but, he gives me a sense of comfort whenever I'm around him," I stated.
Taehyun sighed as he ran his fingers through his hair and turned away from me. "So was I dumb thinking that if I came to you and tried to fix things, everything with be okay between us," he said, "Just because I feel the way for that guy doesn't mean my love for you has completely disappeared," "I still do love you TaeHyun, you don't know how happy I was when you called me yesterday. I was over the moon by just hearing your voice." I told him, "You can't love me because you make love with him every other night Jihoon!" He exclaimed,
I felt a pang in my chest, the weight of Taehyun's words hitting me hard. "TaeHyun, please... it's not what you think," I pleaded, trying to find the right words to explain.
"I didn't know how to cope when you were gone," I continued, my voice trembling with emotion. "He was just a distraction, a way to fill the void you left behind. But my feelings for you never changed, not for a moment."
"Then block him," he said like it was a command or something, "why should I block?" I asked, "If you really do love me like you say you do block him right now. It shouldn't be a problem right," he said.
I couldn't believe this right now. "There's no need for me to block him, can't you understand that I love you and only you!" "Look, I never told you to end things with your then-boyfriend because we weren't together anymore and I understood that you had to move on," I said, "Now you have to understand that this guy means nothing to me. You're the only one I want for goodness sake!"
"I came back so we could fix things and it's obvious that you don't want that." He said walking past me and towards the door. "Can we please not do this right now." I said holding him back, "You're finally back and I don't want to start like this."
Tension hung thick in the air, the weight of our unspoken words suffocating the room. Taehyun stood at the door, his hand on the knob, his eyes clouded with conflicting emotions.
He turned to face me, a mix of hurt and frustration etched across his features. "I need you to reassure me that this guy means nothing to you, especially if we're going to fix this. We're not always going to be around each other every day so please tell me you're never going to see that guy once again because I've cut off all the guys I talked to." He explained
I felt a surge of mixed emotions, understanding the depth of Taehyun's request. His eyes bore into mine, searching for the reassurance he desperately needed.
"I promise you, I won't ever see him again," I said, but my heart felt like it sank deeper into the ocean. It feels heavy that it hurts, I don't know why but I hate this feeling.
Good," TaeHyun Said as he leaned in to kiss Jihoon, "I'm the only one you should love, no one is good for you except for me." He whispered through the kiss. He pushed Jihoon down on the bed and climbed on top of him. He sat on him and started kissing him again, "Don't ever think of that guy ever again."
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The next morning:
I didn't know how to feel at that moment, should I feel happy, sad, disgusted, or disappointed? My feelings were running wild, the person I truly loved was lying next to me but…it almost felt like I was sleeping next to a stranger. Taehyun was a very lovely person, everyone liked him because he had an outgoing personality. But now; I'm starting to realize that he was the one I loved but not the one I wanted or needed.
Suddenly a phone notification popped up, thinking it was my phone I grabbed it and saw no new messages. I looked over at TaeHyun's phone and looked down at him. I slowly reached out for his phone and checked.
I opened his phone and it was a text from his ex-boyfriend. Curious I opened it and didn't expect to see what I saw, there were nude photos and flirty messages back and forth between them.
Not only was it from his ex, but he had so many other guys he was flirting with and hooking up with.
As he started to toss around the bed I quickly turned off the phone and went back to holding him. "You're up already?" He yawned still half asleep. I slightly smiled and nodded, he hugged me tighter and buried his face on my chest. "Last night was great," he said "How about we go for a morning round." He suggested, I shook my head.
"How about you go take a shower and I'll go see if BeakHyeon is awake." I said as I got out of bed, "Don't wait for me, I'll be downstairs for a while." I slipped a shirt on and headed downstairs where I found Hyeon in the kitchen eating breakfast.
"I'll take an avocado, Mrs. Min," I said sitting down across from Hyeon. "What's wrong with you? Was your night shitty?" He asked, "I don't think I have feelings for Tae anymore, last night once he found out that I was hooking up with Minji he turned it a whole deal. He told me to block him and I did but, turns out he has so many guys in line waiting for him to go back to Thailand so they can have a piece of him." "Now I don't know what to do," I explained.
"Let me get this right, he made you block Minji while he had dudes in his phone this whole time?" He stated, "Yes." "I don't even know why i believed him when he told me he was trying to to fix things with you." He said. "So what are you going to do now?" He asked.
"I'm ending things with him for good now, I already know what I want." I replied.
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As I was about to open the door to the room I heard TaeHyun speaking on the phone so I east dropped.
"Yup, can you believe that he had been hooking up with someone this whole time," he chuckled, "I told him to block him and I made him fuck me that same night." He said, "Like who does he think he is, I'm the only person for him. But his actually dumb enough to think I came back to fix things, I only came for his dick that's it." "I never even liked him, he is just good in bed that's why I was always all over him." He laughed.
For some reason I didn't feel heartbroken, I felt relief over my body. Even if my heart ached a little I was happy that I could finally kick her out of my life without feeling guilty. When I opened the door he quickly ended the call and turned to me with a smile on his face.
"Did you have a good breakfast?" He asked as he hugged me, I slightly smiled and nodded. I slowly pushed him away as I grabbed my towel off the hanger, "Can you take me out shopping today, I really want to get some new clothes." He said, hesitant I agreed because if I didn't he would turn it into a big deal.
So throughout the day, he dragged me left and right and also up and down. And of course, I had to pay for everything he was buying for himself, none for me. Finally when the sun started setting I decided to end this shopping spree, all the money I saved up with a plane to take Minji somewhere nice was all spent on a person that I thought loved me.
"Do you think all this stuff is necessary?" I asked as I was driving back home, "Yes they are, I'm going out tonight so I need them."He replied, "Where are you going?" I asked curious, "I'm going out with a friend, I haven't seen him in a long time." He said smiling at his phone. I nodded and decided not to say anything else.
Once we got home he got one of my security to take all his stuff up to the house as he got ready to go out with his so-called friend. At some point, I was hurt and angry that he had the audacity to hook up with some other guy after lying to me and making me block Minji.
But I wasn't going to say anything about it, I'll let him hook up with anybody he wants, I'm just going to catch him in the act and stop things between us.
"Bye baby, see you later." He said as he kissed me goodbye and rushed out to enter in a mysterious car that was parked outside.
A few hours passed by and I was getting bored alone in the house, I threw my jacket on and headed out to Miracles Bar to see if I was going to find Minji there.
"Where have you been man, haven't seen you in a long time." Guard Jo said, "I have been a little bit occupied," I said, "Is Minji around?" I asked, "Yup he's inside, he been down for the past week. Maybe he missed a certain some." He smiled, and I chuckled as I entered the bar.
Once I walked In, there he was behind the counter making drinks as usual. We suddenly made eye contact and he quickly looked away from me and went back to work.
I slowly walked through the crowd and headed to the counter. As I sat down I looked at him and smiled but then suddenly he walked away.
He kept walking by me and ignored me whenever I tried to talk to him. I had finally had enough, when he was about to walk by me again I grabbed him and made him talk to me. "Are you mad at me or something?" I asked, "If you're not ordering anything let go of my hand." He said pulling his hand away from mine.
For some reason seeing him so defensive a smile appeared on my face. I hadn't seen this side of him in a long time, but my smile didn't last long. As turned in my chair I suddenly saw a person that was dressed like TaeHyun kissing some random guy in the middle of the bar.
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