KIAN
I am spiraling and it is worse than I thought it would be. Seven weeks since I let him go, and seven weeks since I have been on my edge. I regret letting him go when I had the perfect chance to crush him and be done with it.
If I had crushed him that day in the cathedral then...I wouldn't have him live rent-free in my head and gnaw at my soul like he is right now. Not even Yasmin's death haunted me like Liam's memories are haunting haunting me.
It's almost like I am the second version of myself when Yasmin died. No, even worse. Bloodshot eyes, purplish-black bags under my eyes, deep grooves on my face, and slightly tousled hair. I have been in a foul mood since Vivana took Liam back with her, snapping at everyone around me, even Jennifer.
