The days after that night felt hollow.
I told myself I wouldn't think about it—that I would pretend nothing had happened. That I hadn't seen his walls, hadn't heard his voice crack, hadn't watched him almost break.
But he was gone.
For 5 days, I didn't see him. Not in class. Not in the hallways. Not in the places I had unknowingly started watching.
A part of me wished I didn't care.
But Vee noticed.
She didn't ask outright, didn't press for answers. She just… existed beside me. Constant. Steady. Safe.
Maybe that's why it hurt more.
That night, I left the dorm.
I told myself it was just to clear my head. A walk. Nothing more.
The air was crisp, the streets quieter than usual. I exhaled slowly, watching the way my breath curled in the cold.
I wasn't sure when my feet led me toward the stairwell.
Wasn't sure when I heard the voices.
I stopped.
Two figures stood at the landing above.
I shouldn't have been able to hear them. Their voices were low, nearly whispers, but the silence of the stairwell made every word cut sharp.
"I didn't tell anyone," Vee was saying. "I told her. That's not the same—I was just trying to help—"
A pause.
She was still arguing. Still trying to explain.
"That's not lying—"
He wasn't listening. His expression never changed—calm, unreadable, but his fingers twitched.
A subtle movement, barely noticeable, but a sign. The only sign.
Then, he moved.
It wasn't a shove. It wasn't frantic. There was no anger in it—just a quiet, calculated decision.
Vee's foot missed the step.
The realization hit her too late—her hands shot out, reaching for something, anything—but he had already accounted for that.
His grip met hers for just a second, but not to save her.
To let go.
The moment stretched, like time itself resisted what was happening.
Then, her body broke through the air.
A sharp, gasping scream—cut off before it could finish. A sickening, solid crack as her skull met the concrete below.
And then, silence.
The world didn't process it fast enough. But he didn't even look down.
He turned. Adjusted his sleeve. Then, he looked up.
And Iwas there.
I hadn't meant to be. I wasn't even sure when I stopped walking, when my breath had caught in my throat, when my hands had gone cold.
For a moment, we just stared at each other.
I. Frozen.
Him. Unmoved.
Then, a tilt of his head. Not in surprise. Not in regret.
In acknowledgment.
And then, he walked away.
I didn't scream.
I didn't run.
I just… left.
Back to my dorm. Silent.
The image was burned into my mind—the slow way her body fell, the sound of bone hitting concrete, the way he looked at me after.
My ears rang.
I could still hear it.
I crawled under the covers, eyes open, unblinking.
I didn't sleep.
Didn't move.
Didn't say a word.
Not even when they found Vee the next day.
Not even when the whispers started.
Not even at the funeral.
Because he was there too.
And when our eyes met again, he smiled.