ALEXANDER
"Dad, please, can we go to the park today?" Vincent begged me. He has been doing that for the past ten minutes now, but I am not ready to budge. It's not that I don't want to take them. It's just that I don't think I want to see the lady again.
Marina.
It's something simple but nice to pronounce at the same time. I know the way I behaved to her was very wrong but I can't apologise to her, it is not me to apologise to anyone, I don't wish to see her at all.
Seeing the way she acted with Xavier, I don't know how but it stirred something within me, she helped him so easily, I know it is her job to help him but still the way she kept calling him baby as if it was something she was used to or the way she hugged him so close like a scared mother who about to loose her child, I don't like the fact that the kids are kinda getting attached to her.
It's weird.
She is a black, I am not a racist but it was kinda of weird to see a black touching my kids. According to the file Carlos got about her she moved to Ireland by the age of seventeen to pursue her education.
"Daddy please" hearing Xavier's voice bringing me out of my thoughts, he was giving the puppy eyes which is so hard to resist.
God these kids.
"Okay go get ready, I will be waiting"
"Yaaaaay" they screamed running up the stairs happily.
After their mom died I was the only one to take care of them, I have always tried to give them a motherly love but I know it is impossible, they still crave a mother's love and affection, maybe it's that wanting that make them drawn to the lady, but they where not like this with Sarah, Vincent hated everything about her, he didn't even attempt to like her even after all her tries of getting on his good side but this Marina lady just on the very first day of seeing her he is already all over her.
God, what am I going to do.
"Dad, we are ready" they were already dressed into fresh clothes wearing a baseball cap and a face mask. "I hope we are going to see auntie" Vincent said smiling.
Can they just stop all these?
Immediately we arrived at the park they ran out of the car running into the park, they were so excited to see her. I got down from the car, walked into the park to see them already hugging her with smiles on their faces. She looked happy to see them as if she was expecting them.
What the hell is wrong with these people?
"Hey baby, I am not your mommy your mommy is at home " I hear her say as I got closer to them.
"He thinks you are mommy, our mom is dead" Vincent said so easily it didn't even sound as if he was sad, he sounded normal. He easily told her their mother is dead. What is going on in this little boys head.
I think I've been asking too much questions lately.
"I'm sorry" she whispered as she hugged them both. "Xavier you can't call me mommy, I don't think your dad is going to like that, ask let's stick with auntie, huh?" She said to reason with him but only made Xavier shake his head
"No, no you are mommy I want mommy " he said as he hugged her neck making her hug him back.
"Ok you can call me mommy but not just in front of your father" she said. Looks like I scared her a lot to make her afraid of me.
"So we can call you mommy" Vincent said holding her hands with a very satisfied look, his looked showed how satisfied he is.
"Do you guys want cookies, I baked them myself " she said opening a cookie jar and they began eating the cookies.
After waiting for sometime, I checked the time to see it was 7 almost time for dinner.
"Boys it's time to go home " I said making myself known to them. They all looked up together but Marina was the only one with a shock expression.
Xavier got down from her laps walking to me then he held my hands "bye mommy " he said waving at her, she looked up at me, it looked like she was apologising to me.
"Xavier, she is not your mother, don't call her that," I said sternly to show him I wasn't joking. "No daddy, that's mommy," Xavier said pointing at her.
"Xavier she is not your mother so drop it, let's go," I gritted out. I am fucking livid at this point.
"But daddy..." Vincent started buy I cut him off "I said no," then pulled them away to the car.
"Bye, kids," she said, waving at them "bye mommy " they both said, and I led them out.
I don't think I like the fact that they are calling her mom. It's kind of weird.
Immediately, we got in the car, and rain started drizzling. "Dad, auntie is still in the park," Vincent said.
So.
What if she is still in the park.
I really don't care.
"Vincent, we are going home" I said and started the car, looking at them through the rear view mirror, both Vincent and Xavier were looking out the window, they must be looking for her.
"Dad, see her," Vincent said, pointing at a figure. She was walking fast, trying to get home quickly.
"Dad, please," Vincent said, holding my hands.
Driving closer to her, I horned at her, calling her attention, I rolled down the window, and she was already looking at me.
"Get in" I said to her but she looked like she didn't want to enter the car "Don't worry sir, I'm okay I will soon be home" she said immediately denying my offer.
"Get in the car, miss Thompson," I said, raising my voice a little. She got in the back seat, and I drove away.
Xavier squealed, hugging her, and she also hugged him back. She looked up into the mirror to see me already looking. She averted her gaze, immediately looking at the kids.
"It was nice being with you kids today. Why don't you guys take the rest home?" It seemed she was talking about the cookies.
"Thank you," Xavier said. Stopping in front of her apartment complex, "Thank you, sir," and all I did was to hmm. "Bye boys" she said and they answered her saying "Byee" she hot down from the car and began running into the complex, when I saw the lights of her floor coming on, I drove away.
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"Dad please can we talk to her " Vincent said for the past week, I made sure they were not going to the park anymore, I don't like them meeting that lady, I don't know it moves something within me which I dont like at all.
"How do you expect me to have her number?" I asked Vincent.
"Dad, I know you, you have it, please, dad." This kids should please stop it, Xavier is already on the verge of tears. Taking my phone, I dialled her number and handed the phone to Vincent.
"Thank you," he whispered.
"Hello," her low voice sounded scared.
"Auntie," Vincent said a little bit too loud.
"Vincent, is that you?" she asked "yes auntie, it's me," he said, sounding happy.
"How are you, Vincent?"
"I'm fine, auntie,"
"That's good, what about Xavier?"
"Mommy," Xavier said lowly
"Hey baby, how are you?"
"I'm fine, Mommy. I miss you," The mommy title again. It irked me to hear them call her mommy when she's not even theirs to begin with.
"I miss you too, baby."
"What are my boys doing?" she said. She sounded as if she wanted to cry.
My boys?
She is already calling them her boys, what the fuck is going on with her, she has no fucking right to call my kids hers, we haven't even had a proper conversation.
"Dad, she said we can see her today," Vincent voice brought me out of my thoughts.
"Bye, we will see you soon,"
"Who's taking you to the park?" I ask because I didn't say I'm taking anyone to the park today.
"Dad, you have to take us, who else?" Vincent says. "And dad, you promised to apologise to her the next time we see her so you have to do it today" Vincent added.
"I didn't promise, I just said an Okay, I'm not doing that"
"Dad, please just do it, for me, if she doesn't like you how is she going to be our Mommy?" Now I'm confused
"I told you before Vincent and I'm saying it again she is not your mother and she will never be" I say raising my voice a little then walk out to my study.
Sitting in my chair with a cup of whiskey in my hands, thinking of what Vincent said, it was a reminder to tell me how much the kids need a maternal figure in their life but I can't say I didn't try, I tried finding but they never seemed to like any of the women I brought
They found Marina by themselves and now they are so attached to her.
The sound of my ringtone breaks me our of my thoughts, picking it up to see Marcel's name on the screen.
"Hello big daddy, I've missed you" He screams. I sigh I'm tired of this guys shit.
"Marcel" I warn slightly through my tone "Okay, sorry big daddy just checking up on you since you chose not to check up on me," He says feigning being sad.
"Marcel I'm definitely not in the mood for all these now," I say taking a sip from my drink.
"What's wrong daddy, is it you soon to be wife?" He teased
"Stop with that shit Marcel, the kids are being weird, all they keep talking about is her, mommy this mommy that, no matter how many times I've warned them to stop calling her that title they just keep doing the opposite, I'm tired she's also not helping referring to them as her babies and shit, Vincent now telling me to apologise to her because of how our first meeting went" Weirdly after saying all these I feel a little lighter.
"Oh my, Alex you've got to calm down, with all these happening I would advise for you to try getting to know her, and don't say you know her just because you did a background check on her, get to know the real her, apologise and see where it all leads of you then feel it's not what you want along the line you can stop, Alex you've tried, for four years you took care of he kids alone, but it's not only you that can raise them the maternal love they always yearned they got it so easily from her that's why they are that attached so I would say go for it, the kids may be right about this one, you also need a partner you have been single for 4 years, you need to get laid brother and let loose, apologise to her and start afresh," Marcel says
Thinking about it now, Marcel is right she might just what the kids need and probably me, I would see what I can do.
"Marcel, I think this is like the first time you said something good, I would try to take your advise" I say still think about it all.
"You hurt me big daddy, buy no worries, I will be coming home on Saturday so till then daddy Ciao," he says then ends the call.
I still wonder how this idiot became my best friend because we are definitely two different people.
Now let's see how this meet up goes,
I down the rest of my drink and stand up to go find the kids.