Love beyond words
Her breathing grew weaker with every passing second...
I held her hands tightly...
Hugging them against my chest...
Tears falling like unstoppable rain...
I wasn't hurt—but I was in pain...
Without her, everything felt vain...
I muttered with trembling hands...
With a shaking voice, and indescribable pain...
"M-Mom… Mom, don't leave me and Dad alone…"
"P-Please, Mom… please…"
I cried in agony as words wouldn't leave my mouth...
Only memories with her played in my mind...
You are the first person to hold me in a warm embrace,
You are the first from whom I learned how to express,
You are the first person to bless me with your kind grace.
You are the first who saw me move,
You are the first who told me how to be kind,
You are the first who was happy to see me,
You are the first whom I was able to truly love.
You are the first to whom I expressed my pain,
You are the first from whom I felt warmth,
You are the first who protected me all the time,
You are the first who comes to mind
When I'm about to go insane.
You were the first whose smile I saw,
You were there for me at my worst,
You will be there for me at my best,
You were the first who made me truly smile.
You are a person who is so dear,
When I see you, I lose all my fear.
The only time in my life when I will truly cry,
Which will leave me broken,
I will be in pain,
So much that I'll be soaken,
It will be when
I bid you the last goodbye.
So please...
I am begging to that god...
Whom you prayed to day and night...
Please keep her alive...
Take me, but leave her...
I will not be a bad boy,
I will be a good boy...
So God, please don't let her leave me...
I still need her...
I was crying my heart out in that white hospital room...
My mom and her scattered black hair like the darkness in a moonless night...
Lying on the bed with an oxygen mask on her face...
Wearing the white hospital dress...
Her blue eyes, like a fading moonlight...
Her pale white skin like moonlight...
Looking as beautiful as ever...
Looking at me with warmth in her eyes...
Gently patting my head with her other hand...
As she said to me in her warm and sweet voice, trying to hide her pain with a gentle smile on her face...
"Mom has always loved you, Kaal... Now I will be going to God, so be a good boy and don't bother Dad from now on..."
"Make sure to eat on time... do your homework on time... and sleep on time... and also take care of yourself."
As these words were leaving her mouth, tears were falling from her eyes...
Her face still containing a smile...
Looking at me as she continued in a more emotional voice...
"Don't cry if Mom is not here anymore... You are a strong boy..."
Tears were not stopping, as I nodded to her every word, saying yes to everything she said in a broken voice...
And she hugged me tightly for the last time, making me feel the warmth which was never felt before...
As her breathing was getting weaker and weaker... every passing moment...
She said sweetly with her last breath...
"Mom has always loved you, my son... Kaal."
As these words left her mouth, her breathing stopped...
I couldn't feel any movement from her...
I just screamed...
"Nooooo! Mom! My mom! Please come back,"
"Please hug me again..."
"Don't leave me alone."
As I just screamed, only to find my father hugging me tightly...
Only to see my tough father cry for the first time...
As he comforted me in an emotional voice...
"Everything will be okay, Dad is here with you."
"Dad is here..."
As I cried my lungs out, only regretting not playing with my mom when she said to play with me...
And remembering every single moment with her...
As I could only cry and do nothing, just praying to that god who didn't respond to my cries...
But I didn't know then that it was not the end…