Maybe they’ll read this after I’m gone

Everything's been so suffocating lately, parents are not very supportive of my aspirations to become a vlogger. Been having very bad thoughts lately. There's so many things I want to express. My emotions, I can't freely and convey them here 100% accurately. I'm currently in a very dark place somewhere in the bottom of negativity my mind's have been overthinking, overwhelmed. The future of youth in backwater countries like mine is very very bleak. It's quite hard to see a clear sight of the near future of our lives, much less a few years. I've tried to talk to my parents about these troubles, they listen but it seems they didn't hear my words, saw the emotion in my eyes, and feel the pressure. I'm sure they've been through a lot worse than my situation. All I'm asking for is just some freedom from home. Ahhh why am I even saying these. All these words are written by the voice recording of my laptop, thanks for listening to a coward who lacks the strength to face his death by his own hands.