Chap 1
It was raining that day too. When I looked up at the sky to serene my tulmatus heart i saw drak clouds surrounding the whole world. The sky was a canvas of sorrow, painted with dark brushes of longing...
Grey clouds gathered like the shadows of forgotten memories, heavy with unshed tears.
The air was electric with anticipation, yet thick with the silence of goodbye.
Nature itself seemed to mourn our lost love, as if sensing the ache within my chest.
The wind whispered secrets only the heartbroken could hear, its gentle breeze a cruel reminder of your gentle touch...
Then, the clouds deepened, their darkness mirroring the emptiness I'd soon feel without you.when you will be holding her hands, dropping your fingers on her for the first touch you both could earn I will be tearing myself apart from your every of touch. Shedding evert memories of your presence, memories.
The first rain drop fell like a solitary tear from the grey sky...
It landed on my cheeks with a gentle kiss, a haunting whisper of your name.
The second drop merged with the first, a lonely heart beating in unison with mine.
Then, a third... a fourth... each one echoing the footsteps of your departure.
My world was drowning, one heartbreaking drop at a time.
"Congratulations on your wedding Selena , Dylan " everyone quacked in unison surrounding the newlyweds.
Hearing the name i always earned for, worshipped for i turned to gaze at him for one last time. Only once . As I turned my head towards the crowds with thousand people my eyes landed first sight only on you. The epitome of a name i licked thousands of time in my tongue. Sometimes with sorrow, sometimes with annoyance, sometimes with anger but million of times with love, Adoration, Affection, Devotion, Passion, Tenderness, Infatuation, Obsession ,Desire, Cherishment , Worshipment.
As I watching him wearing tailored black tuxedo fitting perfectly over broad shoulder , Crisp white shirt with subtle sheen, accentuating his strong jawline, slim black bow tie elegantly knotted, hinting at sophistication, hair perfectly styled, dark locks framing his chiseled feature , a single white rose boutonniere on his lapel, symbolizing forever. eyes burning with love and promise, locked intensely forward as if on me, I wish . I stared at him while he started at her. How beautiful u look my love I murmur in myself as gazing at him from dar end of the church.
While chattering with everyone his gaze suddenly fell on me.
_Thud thud thud thud_
My heart was thrumming continuously as a drum getting smacked by sticks. To me that drum stick was you whole presence. Your charming olive green eyes on me.
We stared at each other what felt like eternity. None of us taking our eyes of each other as he was soaking me out of my whole being with just one stare.
'Look at me , look at me whole, all the time, take me away from this place , let's go to our nest where we build it with our love, Passion, promises of past , present and future. Future what we dreamed of , future what u showed me , future where we we live. _Please_ ~'
But nothing last in my life so his gaze. Her newly wedded wife take his arms pulling it towards her glaring at me with wary eyes. As if I will steal her husband away.
" Hah!! " I utter only in despair. What I have become to everyone, to myself . Enough to steal someone's husband as everyone was whispering surrounding her.
' oh yes, I'm the other woman ' I remind myself. That's the only reason for all those blazing eyes with contempt & ugly words of my character .
I laugh at myself. Laughing at my pity , worthless self.
' you guys don't have to throw contemptuous words at me to let me know how ugly I am . I pity myself to , to ever dream or thinking of living in this world. Don't worry I will end everything with my own hands so no one have to ever look at a worthless person like me again or stand before a behemoth person like me '
As I glane one last time at him I see he is still watching me.
'Yes , always only gaze at me, think about me, think about our precious times , how you ruined it all with your own hands and destroyed my whole being. '
'I curse myself , if there's any next life i pray , pray to you God, listen & accept my one last wish , never let me find him again. Let me be alone if there's no one left for me but never ever let me or him find each other again.'
While gazing I smile at him with my red rimmed eyes and put the gun on my head .
"It's so called Dylan." I whisper .
~ *Bang*~