Transmitting So Everyone Will Have A Happy Ending

I always has this feeling that I was all alone in this world. No one is helping me why I ask my self, Is there no one? I never get the answer to these questions. I read some where that's you come to this world and you die alone and it's true for me. Maybe I was the unlucky one or other ones has the most luck, and self crashing feeling never end. I ask myself why me and entail I found the answer it's was to late. I was just falling asleep never to wake up again and never to find an answer to those questions. Those questions are making me fall deeply into darkness and make me want to hate everyone around me and most of all hate myself. Then I was little I was afraid of darkness, Now all I see is darkness I never know that I make friends with dark thoughs and know one will save me. I don't know how long I walked in the darkness after so long I saw beeken of light I started to run towards it then I was almost there lights enlope me. I opened my eyes first thing i thought why I am alive I thought my suffering was ended maybe god's has some more suffering stor for me.