Kyro
The sun raised with a promising new future, new happiness, new adventure of life. But for me, this sun rise was going to be a one of the worst nightmare of my entire life, until my last breath.
I booked a emergency air ticket which was so expensive but I didn't care of wealth at that point of my life. I knew when I will come back to Paris, I may not the same. I was seeing a happy yet and playful life again. But guess, I wasn't favorite of goddess.
By afternoon I landed on US. I just took a taxi and directed reached at Memorial Sleon Kettering Cancer center, New York. I ran to receptionist, asked the room no. Then I stormed to my mother's room. I found my father, sitting on the steel bench, his elbows resting on thighs and his face was buried in his palm.
"D-dad." I called out. I felt my voice was sticking in against my throat. He looked. He gave a forced assuring time. He stood up, and patted my shoulder firmly sometime,"She's proud of you, son. She's waiting for you now. She has a long journey now." he said with bitter smile.
"WHAT THE HECK YOU'RE SAYING!" I snapped, I couldn't hold myself anymore. He didn't flinched maybe he knew I would react like this,"S-she has to live more. I want her to play with my children.... H-how dad? How can you pronounce something like that?" I whispered, my lips trembled. I felt hot streams were ruching down from my eyes.
He looked down. I looked at door. It couldn't be happen. She just can't leave me like this. Every man needs a powerful female figure. She was the one. A powerful mother.
I rushed in the room. Saw my mother, so calmly laid on the hospital bed. Oxygen mask was attached to her mouth, her every hair fell because of chemo therapy. Her face was pale. But the sweetness still caught my eyes.
Her eyes moved on me,"K-Koko? Is it really you?" She weak yet tremblingly called me by my nickname which only she used. I closed my eyes tightly, another hot stream rolled down from my cheeks. I took a deep breath and forced a smile. I calmly went near her, pulled the chair and sat besides her bed,"Yes, Mom. It's your Koko." I hold her hand, with my two hands, so tightly. Because if I left her hand, maybe... Maybe she will fly away from our world.
She smiled,"You're looking more handsome." She weakly chuckled. I just stared at her. I was fighting. Fighting with my emotions,"Mom, dad was spitting rabish. I scolder him so much today." I firmly spoke up.
Her expression softened,"Really? Hmm... Keep him like that, Koko. He's now your responsibility." she said. I couldn't hold my tears,"M-mom.Please.... Don't leave." My voice cracked,"Please..." I begged and squeezed her hand. She just smile,"Everyone have to go, Koko. It's a nature call."
I shook my head like a lost child,"You used to told, you'll.... you'll play with my children."
"I can still see them from far."
"No. Mom... You told me... Told me, every man needs a female, a strong female figure. Please don't leave us.. Leave me." I begged my lips trembled. I just can't bare this pain anymore.
She smiled,"Goddess planned something for you, Koko. You believe in goddess, right?"
I nodded, I closed my eyes,"Koko, you're the best son. I really proud of you. You proved yourself. You're now grown. You can take care of yourself." Her expression softened more. More tender,"Maybe someone will there for you. Maybe my daughter in law?"
I shook my head,"Don't leave me, mom. Please." She just smile. Maybe for the first and last time. She won't listen to me.
"I'm so lucky to have you as my son, Kyro. Gaddess may sent someone for you. It's my last wish." She suddenly took a deep breath. My eyes widened,"No... Please..."
The wind opened the window with rush. The sun beam came into the room like the messager of God of death. My mother slowly exhale the breath, with a smile she closed her eyes. Forever.
Everything went silent. Everything suddenly stopped. I was still not believing. I heard my father's from behind me. I saw my mother was laying on bed like a angel. But it's not she anymore. It was 'It' then.
I stood up, tremblingly but my legs failed and I fall on the floor. Tears didn't stopped. But I didn't broke in sob. My chest was in intense pain. A unbearable pain. I lost someone so precious. Someone who protected me. Someone who raised me. The real goddess of my life.
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The rain wasn't stopping from yesterday night. The darkness swallowed the Paris. It's been one week after my worst nightmare. I took a leave from the office. Dried tears strains was still in my face. I could felt my was a mess. I was a mess, physically and mentally too.
My father also came France but went to his country side farmhouse. He wanted to live a country life. I didn't stopped him. Because dads never show affection to their sons.
Colt everyday come to my apartment these days. He often made dinner or tried to make me laugh. But I was injured. So hardly. Not physically. But my spiritually. I want warmth.
I remembered countless times my mother protected me from bully, from taunting from relatives, from many things. Her every words roaming around my mind. At this moment, I need to let the pain go. But I couldn't.
My eyes becoming blur, I really felt the coldness of loneliness. I couldn't take anymore.
I felt a hand on my shoulder. It was warm. I leaned towards the owner of the hands. It was warm or 'She' was warm.
"Let it out, Kai." I heard a familiar sweet voice. The voice which brings me a unexpected happiness. I looked up.
"S-Somi?"
I couldn't hold myself. My lips trembled so hard and I pulled her close to me. I hugged her and broke into sobs. A heartbreaking sob.
She creased my back and I more seeked for comfort. I nuzzled again her neck and my grip around her tightened. At the moment I knew. Maybe, Goddess listened to my mother's last wish. If it's true. Then I will keep her to me. No one can snatch.